start anew
Posted by juzer at 01:16 AM on November 3, 2009.
+Monday, November 2, 2009
Life is good. M tried to tell me that he loves me and thinks I'm beautiful. If this is true -why can't I see it myself? Has my self-image become so distorted I can no longer tell? Anyway, M has a busy week so I'll do my best to leave him alone and get my stuff done. I decided that I won't pay him a visit over Thanksgiving b/c I need to sort out some things at home. I also hope that in doing so I'll get other assignments done, etc.
I don't think that I have been getting enough sleep. I don't know how it happened but I kind of feel like the leader in two of my groups -_- I hope someone else steps up b/c I'm lazy as fuk. I haven't felt like I wanted to do things in a while -lately. I'm reaching the level of exhaustion when you just stop caring. I want to hide from the world and lie under my blanket. I cried very briefly last night b/c I feel like I'm trying so hard to do well this final semester and I understood that my efforts could come tumbling down if I did poorly in one class. That sounds stupid, I know. I'm also going to get my period soon >_> I slept at 1am.
+ Tuesday, November 3, 2009 (a whole lotta blahhh)
The sleep definitely made me feel better, but I was also more exhausted from it (it's one of those times when you sleep more and that makes you tired). I started working again -YAY! I really felt like I did my best to be productive today. I completed the work that needed to be accomplished at work. I also finished my mkt hw (2 assignments -due Fri), fin hw (due Thurs), and bus hw (due Thurs) for this week. I submitted a work request for my suite's back screen door. I called Bursar's office to figure if I could get my hold remove, they informed me that I could not so I left a message at the financial aid office and they e-mailed me a website where my mother had to sign a MPN. I made sure that was done and will call in like a few days to figure out if there's any progress (hold on my account blocks academic records from sending my transcript out). I also applied for a few more jobs. I only have one interview for like printing sales xD next Tuesday. Although I'm not entirely sure if that's something I would even want to do -I'll still take the interview seriously even if I do or do not get it -it's great practice and I am rusty. I also attended the FIN. ASSOC. meeting today and I really want to go to the NY trip that's on the 17th. I e-mailed my teachers to express my interest and to find out if there's anything important due for that day. I found out that one of my fin. professors moved up presentations, which means that instead of presenting next Thursday, I'll be presenting on Tuesday and we'll have an exam on Thursday. The exam makes me nervous because today he realized that most of the class does not bother to read the WSJ and therefore, he might purposely test us on certain things we should know from the WSJ. So it's currently 11:22pm and I'm working on completing the last question to my FB case. I'm going to go to sleep before 12 and get up by like 6am to start up again.
I want to make sure I do my part for entr fin (we're meeting tomorrow at 9:30pm) and finish my hw, I want to complete my mkt part II assignment, apply to several jobs (directly through websites, contacts?, ask professors?) and read the WSJ just in case he does test us on current events I want to feel satisfied knowing that I at least read and study for fin. also read the manual more in-depth so I can actually contribute to the decision-making process.
Later on, I would like to take notes and write paper on COM, finish other two sections & presentation for MKT, study for FIN (well it's coming up), read for BUS?, and study for Entr. Fin.
Next week: (Hopefully to study for FIN exam but might have to meet for second group case write-up and for other fin class)
- Fin Presentation & Memo due (Nov. 10)
- ETS Exam (Nov. 11)
- Fin 2nd Exam (Nov. 12)
- Mkt Pt 2 Assignment (due Nov. 13)
Head home over the weekend (Nov. 14-15) =D!
+ Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Ended up sleeping till 8:15am-ish. Finished FB case, cleared up the whole transcript mess, and felt unmotivated to do more. I need to finish my entr fin group write-up and hw tonight. I want to take a nap right now :/ Group meeting for entr fin lasted 2 hrs.
+ Thursday, November 5, 2009
Woke up early to work on entr fin group write-up some more and then e-mailed it to the rest of my group. I felt really lazy today. I'm sure I could've found things to do but I don't really know how I wasted my time -just doing nothing for several hours? Lended C(Y)L something very important and she gave me chocolate -I shared chocolate with my suitemates and w/ ML's suitemates. I went to a comedian at 9 and that lasted till 10:15pm-ish. He was kind of funny -I had a hard time laughing at first but there were certain parts that were really funny. I liked his joke about how he was sad to see "slow children playing," but later he was happy for them because he found that they were "slow men working." I helped quiz ML. I have a huge stack of WSJ i would like to read :'/ I decided that I solely want to focus on banking related articles and any other ones that I find interesting as well as financial related (instruments, etc). Tired as fuk -bed now.
+ Friday, November 6, 2009
Today was interesting. I had a good amount of sleep (almost 8 hrs) and yet everyone keeps asking me if I was alright b/c I looked sickly or pale or something -_-; I think my period is coming soon but who knows. I went to watch Couples Retreat w/ my suitemates MS, KA, & CM (no CL b/c she went home this weekend) and I thought it was a decent movie. But I guess it's not necessarily so b/c it has a low rating (5.6) on IMDB. Later on I went to see CH but it turned to be very awkward as I saw like 5 ppl huddled around a table playing cards and drinking :/
