inspiration
Posted by teejaholer at 01:01 AM on April 2, 2005.
i'm gonna totally be random and just type whatever i have in my head.....just bout everything in my head...you ready?..ok here goes..
let's stop talking bout the "now" for once...let's talk bout the past....or what about things that i think of?...maybe somebody should ask me some questions..some questions that don't make me stutter?
like what?
i dunno...anything man...what i loved bout my childhood...why i love playstation and punk rock so damn much..why i'm religious...why cats don't die when they fall from a hundred feet above ground?...just anything...i'll answer it..
anything?...you sure?...you're just gonna speak your mind?
yeh...i'll totally speak my mind..controvesy anyone?..i mean that's wut blogs are for anyways aren't they?..its not just a blog anymore..it's somethin more like a point of view..not just bout yerself but bout everything else around you..
Ok...so..wut about your past?...what was your freakin childhood like?
Hmm..childhood....i dunno where to start relle..i was sorta anti-social...afraid of what people might think if i don't act or dress a certain way...i mean that's just me you know?..now it's a lil different...i kinda don't care wut people think...cuz i like more stuff people don't relle appreciate..*sigh*...childhood days...that was fun..where everything was all planned out..now it's just so unpredictable..
You believe in santa claus?
Hmm..i used to...when i was a kid..i relle did try to leave warm milk and cookies on the table to see whether santa would get em. In the morning it would always be gone and that's wut kept me believin in him...until i saw my dad eating it one night...totally ripped the letter to santa haha..
Wut's your biggest fear?
that would be..heights and roaches..yeh yeh i know wut you guys are thinkin..wut a wuss...but seriously..if you left me in an elevator with one roach...i'd be motionless and i'd turn white..i guess my childhood fears follwed me to my adulthood..
Does isolation bother you one bit?
Depends on the isolation you're talkin bout...isolation from people or from love?..from people?..it would be kewl to be left alone once in a while to reflect my thoughts..from love?..haven't relle found the right one...and even if i did...the chances of me gettin her as my girl would be zilch...i guess it's just hard to get a girl in here unless if you flirt like nuts and touch her....*ahem*..yeh i know i'm in friendster....wasn't gonna say it anyways..but it would be kewl to experience a relationship...that secret bonding...that closeness..closer than friendship...that cheesy feeling you don't wanna feel but end up liking it anyways...i mean...everything is worth one shot right?..i got a question for all of you though...would you pick someone who loves you or someone that you love?..cuz i got some that likes me but i don't think i'm relle attracted to them..
You've always been interested in skulls and goths and punks, if so why not dress like them?
I just like them...i don't wanna be exactly like them...i like the concept of death. And wut goths and punks wear..they remind me of death...the skulls the earrings the tattoos..it's not like i don't wanna have one but it's just not the right tyme..i used to have two earrings..it just kinda closed itself..pity though...i'll pierce them during my long break from work..i love their music...it's all bout the lyrics..it's meaningful..it's bout life and not somethin fake..it's wut people should listen to..not fake A$$ commercialized pop..avril for instance has or might'vr had a relle emotional teenage year...and she's genrated all those emotions into words and look where it got her...she's proud that shes got people that love her music thru wut she had to go thru..
Is that all you've got to say?..i can see yer gettin relle drowsy..
As a matter of fact i am...just ask me more questions later...c'y'all
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