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Posted by teejaholer at 11:02 PM on December 2, 2004.
first thing, don't give comforts cuz it's only this post that i'm gonna rant and by the tyme i finish typing this and re-read it again i'd say oh "what the hell was i doing?" so just let me rant and stuff and you LISTEN for a change alright?I'm going round in circles and this fucking adult thing is just confusing...study, work, family, responsibilities, friends, it's all in a jumble...i know i'm earning good money but i feel like somethin's missin out..and i still don't know what it is...it could be loneliness...lack of self esteem or anger to the world, yes of war and ignorant people who solve things with violence and total lack of respect towards each other. Ok, going out of topic so let me go right back to it.
My friends are just like so so close to me yet i can't seem to see them more than a month or so...wut's that?...xmas is coming and thank God a relle good bud's coming. He's prolly the only dude who understands most of the stuff i'm goin thru. He may be short but a little goes a long way lol. (no offence dude, i'm not that good either...i could list worse things bout me so chill) and besides i was jestin.
Family....argh...there was a tyme in life where the word "responsibility" didn't exist in my dictionary. I knew the words dependency and fun. But like all other dictionaries, words get invented, like "chocoholic" or "info-tainment" to a dictionary is "reponsibilities" to mine. The good thing though is the feeling of being a bit free from my folks and they can see it coming..well they see it already. The drastic change from teenage to adulthood. I may be classified as an adult but i'm still a teen...just freshly made into a so-called adult. Example, we're moving and i'm gettin my own room for the first tyme. I get my own privacy, my own "lock and key".
i just wish there was someone to share it with. You know how i get when people talk bout relationships, like that they're a waste of my tyme but it's not...i know the right person but it's just not working out. it WOULD be great to share though. I still hate valnetines day though..
ok i let it all out...updates!
Games: Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, Dragonball 3: Budokai
Music: Linkin Park & Jay Z: Collision Course, Ryan Cabrera
well i was kiddin you could if you wanna comment on this...just forget what i said..just felt like typing....bored as hell.
Currently feeling: weird